Hen Pecking and other loud noises

hello all,

i suck at this blogging thing!  :0)  I wanna do better, I will do better…..

I’ve been learning so much these last few months about life in general.  One thing that keeps coming back up is Fear of the Lord.  It amazes me how irreverent “we” are of each other, certain situations, etc….that also includes irreverence in church or worship services.

“SkarLett” played at a women’s retreat a short while back and we were taken aback by some of the people there who had little to no reverence during the services.  While people were making decisions and worshiping God other’s, of great physical maturity, were talking away, laughing, cutting up, etc….there wasn’t much notice of the Holy Spirit in the place to them.  To those of us who recognized the Spirit and acknowledged His presence it was quite appauling.  We are trying to focus on our issues at hand and had a bunch of hens pecking in the back ground! 

By no means am I judging the old hens, as a matter of fact I am disappointed at myself for being a yound hen in my past.  Thankfully now, after a few years of training, do I finally get the picture.  There is no need to be “afraid” of God and act as if He’s a monster, but there is a need to understand who He is….this is the God who made the sunshine, the stars, the water, my heartbeat,  my eyes, my tastebuds, etc….the list is endless.   We need to “get it”!!  It honors Him when we recognize His works and it honors Him even more that we recognize His love for us. 

So I’m not judging those old ladies or myself really…..I just want you to “get it”!  He deserves our reverence and honor for WHO HE IS….Not what He can do for us or what He will do to us….

God showed up this weekend and I LOVE all of the ladies we were with.  Lives were changed, hearts and motives put back on track….God showed up no ifs ands or buts about it.  I’m thankful to have been a part of the experience.

I hope this made sense…it’s late and I’ve gotta get some rest.  Good night and sleep well….

ok, gotta say this 2! :0)

how is it that my husband cannot hear a phone ring, an alarm clock go off, or me call his name while he is sleeping, but he can hear me typing on the computer while in bed beside him and pitch a hissy fit about it??!!!!   That is re-dang-diculous if you ask me!  He’s being a drama king right now and I just wanna type. type, type all the way to dreamland……………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………

kasd;fkajoiaeoijg;oaid;dnaiehtoiew;aoidhgahe;sdhoariehr;oiw;oid;oaih;oiawhg;oaihg;oishdoaih

we’papop’woej’paojg’paro;idjg’aritiooeirojbikmlfmvzodijf;oaiejas;j

heeheeheeheeheeheeheheeeeeheeeee

2 new 2 know what 2 say :0)

Since I am real new to blogging, as in this is my first time ever, I am truely thinking of something to say!  I have sooo much in my heart but I have a REAL HARD TIME expressing myself….in other words I don’t tell stories well :0) …..In saying all that, my best friend, Amy, is encouraging and mentoring me into sharing with others my heart and who I really am.

After one of many mentoring sessions, God has so graciously shown me that I am having a hard time forgiving myself…..some of my past is embarrassing and shameful and Satan reminds me of that often.  I think I’ve bought into his lies so deeply that it’s engrained in my being; I’m not even realizing I’m doing it!

Just last week while Amy was encouraging me, she told me of a recent conversation that happened….She was teaching a kid a guitar lesson, after the lesson the mother was picking up her son and started a conversation with Amy about our old music ministry.  Amy was informing her of the new name for the music group, SkarLett, and some of the lessons God has taught us, how she and I have changed, etc……..After the discussion the mother told her something that was so uplifting, and so encouraging that I will NEVER forget it.  She told Amy that it was because of MY voice that her brother believes there is a God!  She told Amy that her brother heard me sing when I first started out on our original ministry attempt years ago and his life was changed forever.  She will always be thankful for me allowing God to use MY VOICE AT THAT TIME to reach her brother.  He now has a place in eternity.

That may seem insignificant to a lot of people, but to me, KNOWING WHO I REALLY AM apart from Christ, and KNOWING WHO I AM AND WHO I HAVE BEEN even with Christ in my life, it seems to be a miracle that He would’ve used me at all!  The original ministry efforts were not disregarded and were not trashed b/c of WHO I AM or WHO I WAS!  God took a captive heart like mine and performed His work through it to bring someone to Him.  He is in control at all times and He knows what He is doing with me!   

Thinking of all the religion I had come to know while growing up, that seems unheard of!  I’m learning to rest in the fact that God’s got my back!  He is my defender of my past and my defender of my future.  He loved me when and while I was in sin, and He loves me the same while in process!